生老病死未免太过频繁地被我目睹.
                                                           命运之事更勿刻意追究地反复咀嚼.

                                   

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                                                       你赐予爸爸生命.并豪迈英武地逐赶命运种种.
                                                       你逐渐败下阵来.仍斗志昂扬地挑战命中注定.

                      

                                                               你被重症监护.更被机器包围.
                                                               你已忘记了我.我该如何是好.
                                                               你终记起了我.我该为你骄傲.

                                                               你的意志比你的身体强悍地多.
                                                               我的语言比我的心绪理智地多.

 

                                                 

 

                                                      我仍记得上一次踏车载你的年月.你痛快.我淋漓.
                                                      我更深刻上一次抚摩着你的左脸.第一次.唯一次.
                                                      我明知时日无多却仍沉默中虚度光阴.
                                                      你明知身不由己却仍固执于顽强个性.
                                                              心率仪的波浪越发澎湃提醒你该稍安勿烦.
                                                              护士们的忠言此起彼伏警告我要适合而止.

                                                                                               

 

                                                      走道休息区
                                                      高龄病友们口吐烟雾嘻哈甚欢.
                                                      射进的光线多刺眼你们就有多光辉.
                               

                                                      我想我永远不及你们任一.永远.

 

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                                                                你试着让我了解命运的道理.
                                                                更尽力助我解开心中的死结.
                                                                  易经有多精.星座如何做.
                                                                  命理如公式.生死皆轮回.
                                                                     生死有命.转瞬即逝.

                                                                     前世今生.出出入入.                                                

                                               

                                                                             sorry
                                                                       我仍未如你释然.
                                                                       却只得尽量坦然.
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                                                                    无论我们是戈戈或狄狄.
                                                                    我们永远等待.不止等待.
                                                                    我们百无聊赖.胡言乱语.
                                                                  或许我们一生都在分饰两角.
                                                                       既是波卓又是奴隶.
                                                                       既是幸运儿也是主.
                                                                  我们都在这境域里尴尬生存.
                                                                  我们难逃虚无挣扎焦虑空无.
                                                                       出生是否为了入死.
                                                                       最后是否就是救赎.

                                                                               等吧
                             

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                                                             我似乎真的了解那时内心沉重的原由.
                                                          好似无法拒绝地看到了左边的他和右边的她.
                                                            更活生生甚至惨烈地目睹了一直以来的我.
                                                                          以及身边的一切.
                                                               不想太过真切地凝视甚至入侵大脑.
                                                                       但你知道,那确实存在
                                                                            无法自欺欺人
                                                                            无法拒绝
                                                                            真的无法拒绝
                                                                            我们都无能为力.